My name is Belinda and I live in Newcastle, Australia.
I am in a loving relationship and I have a beautiful stepdaughter, but I’d always dreamed of having my own baby. After battling health issues, falling pregnant in 2016 was my most precious dream come true.
The day I saw the two lines on the pregnancy stick, I became his Mum. And as his Mum, it was my job to protect him. I took my vitamins and blood pressure tablets, stopped anything that was harmful during pregnancy, and even gave myself daily injections. The six and a half months that I carried him was the most amazing time of my life.
I did everything I could, but in the end, it wasn’t enough.
My baby stopped thriving
Due to complications, my baby boy was stillborn at 26 weeks via a natural birth.
I felt like I failed him. My miracle boy- who I tried so hard for – there was nothing I could do to save him.
The day I gave birth to my son was the most beautiful and the saddest day of my life. I got to nurse and cuddle him. I kissed his little hands and his forehead. He was perfect in every way, just too small to survive in this world. My most precious possessions are the photos I have of him on his first and only day on earth.
My Rainbow Baby
A rainbow baby is a name coined for a healthy baby born after losing a baby due to miscarriage, infant loss, stillbirth, or neonatal death. The name “rainbow baby” comes from the idea of a rainbow appearing in the sky after a storm, or after a dark and turbulent time.
After a few years of complex health challenges and seeing specialists I fell pregnant again. And at 26 weeks it seemed like our nightmare was coming true again. I didn’t know how we would survive another loss. After spending a lot of time in hospital I gave birth to our Rainbow Baby at 29 weeks, weighing a tiny 920g. Born with respiratory distress, he was immediately put on CPAP (Continuous Positive Airway Pressure), with tubes and chords going everywhere in his humidicrib. He remained in NICU for 66 days (the longest days of my life).
There were so many ups and downs throughout this time. After already experiencing a loss this was such an anxious time, and until the day my baby was discharged from hospital I really did not know if I would be bringing home a baby at all. But he is thriving now and I have learnt to take one day at a time. I cherish every second I get to hold him in my arms, and I am completely and utterly in love.
I would love to talk to you about your experience and share some more of mine with you. I support women who have experienced infant loss and those celebrating a new pregnancy. I love supporting other women as both a Self-Love Coach and a Rainbow Mum. I want other women who are on a similar journey to know that they are not alone.
I am here to help you find joy again, and to help you through the mixed emotions that come with having a Rainbow Baby.
I can’t wait to meet you and hear your story.
- Qualified Life Coach – Beautiful You Life Coaching Academy
- Certified Heal Your Life Workshop Leader
- Certified Heal Your Life Teen Empowerment Workshop Leader
- Certified Heal Your Life Coach
- Bachelor of Social Science